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Old October 18th, 2011, 05:35
Mollyb Mollyb is offline
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Default My husband died on December 4, 2010

When my husband died I had been his primary caregiver since he fell ill. And the doctors told us he could be prone to sudden death but how can you make your heart believe that? He stressed and taxed his body on our last day together so he could make sure our old dog got home safely. And I watched over him all night and had gotten so tired because he had been unwell for a couple of weeks. Even more than usual. And I finally got his fever down and covered him up and told him I loved him. He lay in bed so peaceful. And due to the fact he had been so ill, I was sleeping in the other bedroom. I woke up after less than 2 hours and darted into his bedroom and he was dead. I started CPR on him(I'm an EMT part time). And he was gone...I said to him, I'm not going to bring you back to this body. I am so sorry, I love you. And called the paramedic. I wanted to try and bring him back but I knew how selfish that would be...only for me. For him it would have been a nightmare. I feel guilty because I couldn't let him go earlier, and sad because he is gone. A lonliness so deep I can't describe it. And no that my father has passed away several days ago I just can't find peace. I'm sorry and guilty i couldn't have been a better wife, a better daughter. I just want to hide from the world but I know that won't help. I am trying and I pray alot. It feels like I am at the bottom of the well and there is no way I can climb to the top. And maybe I should just give up.
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Old October 18th, 2011, 06:30
tom-fisherman tom-fisherman is offline
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Shalom in Yeshua Mollyb, thank you for sharing your feelings after the death of your husband, and more recently you dad. He sounds like a wonderful man.

I don't think I need to tell you that there was nothing you could have done to save him from going home, even though sometimes we wish we could. The pain of not having them visible with us is very difficult, but we should remember that to our departed loved ones it is only an 'atmos', a moment before we are all re-united together.

He can still hear you while he is in Sheol and will be praying for you. His prayers will be for you not to feel guilty. He knows how much you loved him and want you to be at peace.

Please don't feel like giving up or hiding away. Carry on and live for their sakes. This is how you can honour their memory. You need to share with family and friends, and by the grace of God, He will answer your prayers, and we will do our part to help you through this sad time. Keep talking especially to them!!

May God bless you
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