Yes, that feeling of being frozen in time is a real one. For me it is 15 months and sometime it feels like it just happened. I have moved on but it feels like I am still moving in slow motion and sometimes I feel like I am going backwards. The holidays are very hard and everyone said the firsts are the worst. I think the seconds are worse. Last year in this time I was still numb and this year I am more aware so it seems worse. Just keep talking to your husband and Mart keep talking to Helen. I talk to Jim all the time and it really helps. I know he is with me all the time.