I hope you can find some respite from this site. You are in a realm of kindred spirits. So write when you are ready, or just read, think.... There is always a cohesion of experiences here as you read on here and can relate to others.. I'm sorry for the loss that has brought you here. But maybe you will be able to find a foothold to steady this spin your in right now. I wish you peace for your broken heart.. and as unfortunate as the experiences of those on this site are. They will help you to develop tools of your own, to help you cope with your loss if you so choose it.
Memory can only tell us what we were,
in the company of those we loved;
it cannot help us find what each of us, alone, must now become.
Yet no person is really alone;
those who live no more echo still within our thoughts and words,
and what they did has become woven into what we are.
I wish you peace and a level path on your journey...