Rachel please except my profound condolences on the loss of your Mother.
I'm just a little confused by your post. This forum is usually used for people to share their personal stories and help offer a cathartic release through writing about their journey in grief with the loss of their parent...And since this a place of non judgement that is open to people of many different religious faiths and spiritual paths. I respect what you have to say here, but am confused by the relevance to this forum. You have every right to testify your beliefs... I'm just not sure that this is the appropriate venue for them though.
Memory can only tell us what we were,
in the company of those we loved;
it cannot help us find what each of us, alone, must now become.
Yet no person is really alone;
those who live no more echo still within our thoughts and words,
and what they did has become woven into what we are.
I wish you peace and a level path on your journey...